I have a problem with asthma denial. I think I've probably always had asthma - I have never been able to tolerate exercise. My mom always acted like I was being a sissy. My sister had asthma, "real" asthma, and she never heard me wheeze, so there's no way I could have a problem. Then about ten years ago I had thyroid cancer, and during the surgery I aspirated. I was down to about 10% lung capacity and had to be on 100% O2 for several days. I believe this did some damage, but honestly, I was just so grateful it healed at all, so I didn't really think about it.
Well, it has gotten worse in the last few years and I'm supposed to use a daily inhaler. It helps a great deal, but even with all my other medical issues, I can't get used to this one. I feel like the denial of it was just so drilled into me, I don't know how to get rid of it. I really need to, so I can take charge of my life and take better care of myself. But it's also something I tend to downplay, probably because I've got so many issues, you know, the more problems you have, the more likely a doctor will stop taking you seriously. That's been my experience, at least.
I do have bigger problems, but I feel like if I could really get a handle on the breathing issue, I would probably feel better generally. And to do that, I need to stop feeling guilty about refilling my inhaler (it's expensive).
Sorry if this is rambly. My neurons are acting up. Just trying to get my head on straight and the only person who's supporting me is my husband. My primary care doctor diagnosed me because my symptoms were pretty obvious, but I don't have a specialist. I don't know if I need one and I'm so afraid of being shot down because I'm not having life-threatening asthma attacks. I did have one seriously scary episode in a hotel room that was full of chemical smells. My parents refused to change rooms. I used my rescue inhaler and Benadryl but by early morning I had to go sit in the car. Ugh!. I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels like this. I just don't know what to do about it.